Have you ever played that
team building game with the egg?
It starts with two people
face to face hand each other an egg.
Each time the egg changes
hands they take a step back.
Pessimistically, this
continues until the egg breaks.
I was a camp counselor so
I definitely played and ran this game for others to play, a lot.
Anyway for the purpose of
this analogy, this game (well the EGG anyway) is friendship.
Pessimistically, it sounds
like I am saying eventually all friendships eventually end(break) but let us
not bother with that line of thought.
What I am more interested
in using this game for is to explain myself.
I am terrible at making
friends.
I am simply awful at small
talk.
If I am not “dropping the
egg” I am certainly the reason the other player just walks away from the game.
This thought works for me
because it is amusing, expected and maybe a bit sad.
Either in the short or
long scale I have a hard time making and an even harder time keeping friends.
In the long term, I make a
bad egg toss or a bad catch, either way, someone has a mess on their hands.
But that is only if I get
far enough to even be considered a friend.
During the initial phase I
may talk too much about dumb stuff and assume and otherwise seem too passive or
intense or weird or awkward or whatever.
I feel like sometimes when
I first try to be friends with someone it is like l take the egg and instead of
handing it over, I smash it over my own face.
